May Contain Nuts
It does exactly what it says on the tin
Author: shellous71
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I should’ve been having my picc line fitted today. I had to call the nurses early this morning to say I was too ill to make it. Thursday evening, I was shattered and went to bed early. Understandable as I think I was in shock as well. Friday, I woke up ok, took my steroids and anti-sickness pills and was able to be a bit…
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I woke up early, had a shower, and sat on the side of the bed and cried. Why am I having to go through this? Why me? I don’t think I have the strength to do it. Everyone has been messaging me, and I just want to run away and hide and say – no, you’ve got it all…
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Pre-assessment call that lasted an hour I will be having the immunotherapy drug first, followed by two chemotherapy drugs, Paclitaxel and another one beginning with C (I think) tomorrow. Then for the next two weeks it will be the immunotherapy, which is not as invasive as the chemotherapy. It is being given to help my…
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What a weird day. I was left alone in the house today and had plans to get some housework done, but unfortunately my brain went into absolute overdrive this morning. I almost started writing my feelings down, I’m glad I didn’t. The house was quiet; I was sitting on my own and that overactive…
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See, I’m not very good at keeping a diary. Simon mentioned last night that he was avidly waiting for my next update! Yesterday was lymph nodes results day. The biopsy has shown that there are no cancerous cells there so everything will continue as planned. I had prepared myself for it to be cancer, why…
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I had a lovely weekend. Simon took me out for breakfast at Scott’s and then treated me to a new Southend United home kit. Sunday morning, I went to breakfast with the Sweyne Girls, and Nicky, and had a good catch up with them. I miss seeing them every day at work, I’m currently trying…
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I made the decision today to transfer this diary onto WordPress. I thought it was a good idea to write down somewhere how I’m feeling, so that my girls have something to read and reflect on after I am better. But then, after a conversation with Simon about whether I should blog about everything or…
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I have come to the realisation that I’m shit at keeping this diary up to date. Last week I had an appointment for the results of the MRI, and they saw something in one of my lymph nodes, so they want to take a biopsy of that. At least it’s just there and nowhere else…
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I’m starting to realise that work may know what is happening, but there’s a difference between knowing and caring. Faye, Kim and Andrea care and try and get me to go home. James is just loading me up with work. My hours are 8am to 4pm, with half an hour unpaid lunch. I work all…
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MRI day. I’ve accepted what’s happening, I just need to have all these things done so they know where this cancer is. Simon is with me. We have a conversation, Mum had this done when she had her heart problems (I think). She panicked; I do remember that. I keep telling myself that I won’t.…
May Contain Nuts 