May Contain Nuts

It’s back to school day. 

I’m at home whilst James and Nicola are having to cope with all the new Year 7s without me. I feel lost. 

I feel like a fraud as I could be in work doing what I should be doing. But I know that will all change by Thursday. I should just relax and read a book or watch some tv. I’m not. I am currently checking my work emails, Go4Schools and MyConcern to see what I can to help me get to know the new students. I’ve also been sorting through old emails and documents and getting rid of anything I don’t need. 

Hannah has taken Emily to work and then she’s off to the gym. She put a wash on before she left so I’ll put that out for her. Then I’ll put a couple of our washes on after that. I washed all the towels yesterday, and I was hoping to do the bedding, but Hannah put a wash on. Plus, I need someone to help me get out bedding off … but I might just try to do it one handed! 

I’ve been forced to keep looking at myself in the mirror as I need to keep an eye on any marks or bruises that appear. What I have noticed is the puckering on my right breast has now gone. I did wonder how long it would take for the cancer to start shrinking, and I have been checking my boobs at the start of every month, so I feel relieved to know that the treatment is most definitely working. 

I’m getting bored of water again. This happened after Day 15 on the first round. I need to keep making sure I drink; I don’t want to be told off again by the chemo nurses. 

We went out to dinner as a family this evening. It felt weird and nice, all at the same time. Thankfully the restaurant was quite empty at 6pm so we weren’t too near anyone, but I wasn’t too bothered about that. We had starters and mains, and I made sure I went for the smaller dishes. But I was still really bloated when we finished. It made for an uncomfortable evening. So, I must remember to not try to eat everything, it’s not good for me.