May Contain Nuts

We’re a few days into Week 3 and things are so much better than last week already. I woke up this morning not feeling as sick as I did last Saturday. I took my anti-sickness pill this morning but not at lunch time. I’m hoping that my body is coping now, and I can try and reduce the number of tablets this week. 

I had enough energy this morning to clean the dining room. Listened to a disco album whilst I was doing it! It may only be one room, but that’s a small victory for me. The picc line feels weird today, but that might just be the medical cover that is on it. The picc cover is so much softer and comfortable. Anyway, I digress. I cleaned the blinds as well so that shows how keen I was! 

Simon was keen to go out somewhere last night, even if it was for a drive to get a drink somewhere. So, we popped to Create 98 as Howard was DJing there. Stood outside with Sinead and Al for a while, stayed for a lemonade and then came home after an hour. It felt weird and good to be out. I was in a bit of heightened state with my picc line, but I need to come to terms with it being there and not to panic about catching it too much. It has a cover on it; it’s not going to get caught. Very weird the things that go through your head when you feel vulnerable. 

It’s James and Carla’s wedding today. I was hoping to make the ceremony, but I can’t risk needing to use the toilet at the wrong time! I can’t believe my life is currently based around my stomach and bowels. Do I feel sick? Is it firm or solid? Everything is noted down to see if there is correlation between treatments. I just keep telling myself that this is just for 24 weeks … if I can remember to keep doing it (unfortunately some days have been left half done!). 

My skin today is very dry on my hands, not just on the back but on the side of my palms. I think I’m going to need to have more lip balms and hand creams in different parts of the house and in my handbag. 

We got to the weeding at 6pm and left just before 9:30pm. It was good to spend time with Nicola and Paul. James nearly cried when he saw me. Daft wally, and then Carla nearly did! Then we were joined outside by James and Courtney. It was a lovely evening with friends but the picc line was very uncomfortable and I could feel it constantly. 

I couldn’t risk going in the marquee, I heard James’ brother saying that he felt rough and so did his wife and kids. After hearing that, I couldn’t even face going into a crowded area with potential other people that he had infected. It was a lovely evening anyway, so we all stayed outside. Great pizzas, but I forgot to take my tablet with me, so my stomach was gurgling and wasn’t happy with me. I will have to rectify that tomorrow.